I am itching to write this morning, especially after sitting in traffic for 40mins to get to work this morning when it is usually a 10 min drive. Now.. I have to comment on the fact of culture upbringing. Who is right and who is wrong when an issue is raised? Every culture and every family obviously think their way of upbringing is the right way. But when it comes to expressing opinions on someone elses judgement, you can't be assumed as right also. There will be differences and you can't get upset or get your undies in a bundle when this happens. My parents raised me in somewhat of a traditional way. They always wanted the best for me, raised me with the proper discipline and always warned me of the consequences that could be ahead. To remain a virgin until marriage, not move out with your boyfriend, and I could stay at home till I got married, graduated college, blah blah. However, things don't go always as planned. I thought I needed to learn my lessons by taking my own risks and being brave and always taking the much more extragavant route everywhere I went. I heckled my parents till their last drop, sadly it was all worth it. I took tons of turns rights and lefts, u turns, yields, found myself on one way streets, dead ends and even broke down, but thank God for the stop lights that allowed me to pause and think of my actions and then decide to put on the proper turn signal to get back home.
My point in this is no matter how you bring up your kids, no matter how much you want the things you want for them (although half the time what you want for your kids, isn't what they want), they are going to do what they want to do. Become a rebel in diguise, which is the opposite of what you want to happen. When two people come together from different upbringings you have to compromise between the two brains and their way of thinking or else it is screaming for divorce. Especially in this modern age of living. The traditional approach is a failure these days unfortunately, but if you have a balance of serveral approaches you might have success in raising your kids.
I have had my heart broken many times and broken many hearts, left the country with $25 in my pocket, slept with guns under my pillow, dropped out of school, experienced alcoholic blackouts in the hospital and my parents didn't tell me how to do handle any of these situations, expect this from me or nor did I have any of this planned. It just happened. And I am glad it did. Because I have figured out at a young age what it was all about. And to better prepare my children for these experiences and what is like to live on the wild side. My parents never did such things, they were extremely traditional, so they were in shock when all this happened. You have to taste life before you can critique it and write a review. Now for 24 years I am pretty sure I could write a book about my adventures and It might be a bestseller, but God only know whats in store for the next 24.... all I know is I have to use my best judgement in accordance to the consequences I have suffered from my episodes in the past or reape the rewards from the good things I have done.
I don't want to die stupid, I want to die knowledgeable and wise. I thank God everyday for me being able to kick out all the bad habits I used to have, and for making me new habits. This Thanksgiving that past, I really thanked God for peace of mind. Because I used to not have it. And not having peace of mind can drive one mad. I wake up and I am not confused about what I want to do with my life. And I go to bed with a sense of knowing that tomorrow will be one more day closer to the dream and another day to gaining more wisdom I didn't have. If you pass your days without gaining knowledge, your life is a waste of time. If you stick to the same routine and you have nothing new to talk about...you become boring. You become predictable. Like those that pass their weekends in a night club. You are so predictable. Where to go, what to do, what to wear...I used to be that person. I used to be in a routine of doing that every weekend. With plans to go out, have fun, get buzzed, meet a hottie and then the next day I am the same exact person. (however I did find my boyfriend in a club, but that only happens once in a blue moon, heheh). But I was so boring, I had nothing to talk about and I did in fact, become predictable. It was the same story for months, wait, for years. I became so worn out from that atmosphere. In fact, last night I went to a night club and found myself in a train of thought of thinking "how the hell was this ever fun" or "how did this ever satisfy my craving for fun". And it is amazing to see the same people there, that were there 2 or 3 years ago, that have made no progress and are still stuck in the same routine. My prayers go out to these people. Really, they do. I am somewhat disgusted by the idea that these people have nothing better to do than engage in those activities for so long and not be willing to change. Not be willing to try something new. Like for example, running into people last night from back in the day, your old clubbing friends.. you never saw them during the week, just on the weekends and strictly to go out to clubs. What do you talk to them about... what is the conversation... "oh hey your still here, how have you been"... you never talked to these people about school, family, facts of life, you never shared any meaningful words, it was all bull shit. They weren't your friends. They were your sad excuse to be recognized in the club. And I found myself in that position last night. And I felt sorry for the other person. My sympathy goes out to those people.
Thanksgiving. Being thankful. Life is full of blessings. I am surrounded by them everyday. 2010 has been a very challenging, but over all pleasant year, but Ive really learned to test my patience and my ability to love. When it comes to friends, I've lost a bunch unfortunately. But at 24, it is a risk you have to take whether you want to or not. I might have just a handful of friends, but man are they good ones. You really got to take a good look at who you surround yourself with. When in a relationship, it is extremely hard. Most of your time is spent with that other person and friends get jealous, upset and unforgiving, and usually not against you but especially against your partner. You have to focus on if they are in agreement with your relationship and can accept your moving on from them. That the weekends won't be the same, the conversation material will shift and time with them lacks. But when it comes to your friends pushing you to make bad decisions, poor choices, and tempting you to invest your time in weak activities, its time to act.
Sometimes it is just the thought of "They have been my friends for so long, they have always been there, they are good people" well, they haven't been there for you in times like this where serious actions need to be taken and decisions are being made to better yourself for a succesful future. Maybe their good friends because they answer the phone when you call or they help you when your drunk off your booty and throwing up at the local gas station in a paper bag. What is the quality in the friendship? Are you stuck in the past? Are you trying to hold onto something that has already diminished? Do you still share the same interests as you did before?
Buenas noches!! It seems like everyone is getting hitched or knocked up these days. I can't help but think about it at 24 and that my destiny is right around the corner. Its weird cause I've never thought about my future in such detail until just recently. I went to a wedding this past weekend that kind of got me in the lovey dovey spirit and my best friend having a baby really took the wool off from my over my eyes. I just hope that the 5 steps taken forward all the time don't get reversed into 10 steps backwards like were used to doing. I've been raised by parents that are going on 30+ years of marriage (actually their anniversary is this month) and I just believe that Marriage is Forever. Divorce holds no definition in my dictionary. It is for quitters, losers, cheaters, etc. etc. Bla bla bla.....So my mind has been on the topic very much so lately. Well... its time for movie and wine and back to tons of homework and work tomorrow. Peace xoxo
Ayyyy mi corazon. So confused.....
im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday
I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss then we make up on the way
I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I
My best friend, Lucy had her baby girl this morning at 3:15 a.m. She was 6lbs, 9oz after almost 15 hours of crazy contractions and miserable-ness. I cant wait to be an auntie to this sweet baby girl!! Congrats Lucy and Guero :)
So I was able to experience Halloween in 2 major cities this year.. and Vegas has NADA on LA... LA knows how to dress up and be super silly. But in Vegas I got to go see the Phantom and it was amazing! goosebumps for 90 minutes straight. it was a nice weekend with perfect weather, a great big room and crown in hand. Now its Election day and I gotta go vote... !!!!
