My dad is just the typical American man. He works hard for his money, plays by the rules, married his high school sweetheart and had two kids of their own. He drives around his white Ford truck with this American flags stickers and is patriotic in every sense of the word. He is my hero. He took his out of financial despair when we needed, and has always given us 101% support in all our family does. And he always gives the best advice, maybe not what you think is best, but later down the road, you will understand why he said what he said at the time. He is he best Dad, boss and Im sure he will make the best grandpa :)
He was recently diagnosed with skin cancer and he is struggling with it. He goes in for check up and they literally scoop out his face and make him bleed horribly. For the first time in my life, today was the day I saw my Dad totally taken down. I've never seen him cry, but I could tell he was depressed and in pain. I pray to God that he makes it through this and I spoke to my brother today and we both agreed he has so much support he has nothing to worry about. XoOxoxoxox I love my Dad <3
There are nights full of laughter, smiles, passion and kindess. There are nights full of silence, coldness, bitterness and yelling. There are nights I wish I could make love to you endlessly. There are nights of constant fighting where I can't stand looking at you. You drive me absolutely crazy, completely and desperately crazy. Crazy in both ways of the word. Crazy in love, crazy emotionally, crazy physically, crazy in your arms tight around me, crazy when I raise my voice at you, crazy when you make me slam my car door, crazy when you kiss my lips, crazy. Only you.
Esta forma de amarte es la mas loca que no hay palabras de explicar como me siento. If I were to leave you, the days would drag so slowly, the nights would be unbearable, my lips would become dry, my smile wouldn't shine and my eyes would have no focal point. If I were to stay with you I would experience every emotion under the sun, whether it being good or bad, I would feel alive in every aspect, I would feel as though I was fighting for something worthy and you are my trophy that I could hold between my own hands, worship and adore. I've always mentioned and said Peanut butter and jelly is the best combination there is. Without the sweet and fruity jelly, or without the bitter, smooth or crunchy peanut butter you have nothing and when the contrasting ingriedients mix together, they are perfection to the taste. But you must mix both equally or else it will leave a bad taste in your mouth.
I despise waking up mad at you, I hate leaving you in a negative manner and thinking bad thoughts of you. I hate not knowing where you are, if your not ok, if you are thinking about me. I hate it. I hate the way you hate things about me. I wish I could be everything you wanted, hoped for and dreamed of, but I can't. And we can't apologize everytime for being me or nor can you.
Is there something wrong with being yourself? Is there something dissapointing about having an opinion? Absolutely not.
With everything that has been going on lately, like problems extreme sadness with not passing my math class (however, I Will this summer conquer the subject), and other things... I had a fabulous weekend. It all began on Friday night with my date with Ivan. It was just what we needed. I swear, with all the storms that may happen in a relationship there is always a rainbow at the end (if there is love). We have had some major issues this past month, we have made it through extra strong and I swear I have fallen in love with him all over again. I can't wait for this new chapter in our lives, I feel as though we are very strong and can get through absolutely anything.... together. I will do anything to make this relationship succeed and thrive. Sometimes it takes these fights, arguments, silence, or whatever to really figure out what you have with someone.
We spent Friday in amazing seats at the Dodger game and went to watch some great live music afterwards. Saturday I relaxed, enjoyed a great movie with my mother, and spent the day catching up. And today I spent the day with My BFF and her family. We enjoyed enchiladas, blue moons, great laughs, and Annalee, I love her so much. I love that family so much. Such a great day with them.
Next week is finals I plan on getting an A on each of my tests, despite my failure in math I still have my head up and remain with a positive attitude that I can do this. Afterwards it is the Bahamas and Miami with my love.... can't wait!!!!!
XoxoXooxoxo
Quedate cada noche
Y suename en la luna
Amame por las calles
Perdidas de mi vida
Besame poco a poco
No sea que me muera
Vive con esto loco
Perdido que te quire
Si me hace falta tu presencia
Yo me pierdo buscandote
Cierro mi vida, cierro para mi
El libro blanco de mi vida
El libro blanco de mi vida
Perdido sin ti
No me dejes solo Sin ti
Quedate en mi casa I love you
Sin ti me falta todo I need you
Sin ti no queda nada
Estoi perdido No me dejes solo
Sin ti Quedate en mi casa
No te vayas Sin ti me falta todo
Esperate Sin ti no queda nada
Amor Quedate Amor
Quedate Toda la vida
Quedate Perdido sin ti
Guardate en mi memoria
Y escondete en mis brazos
Metete por los poros
Abiertos de mi herida
Mirame desde cerca
Y matame si quieres
Pero no me abandones
Al viento de mi vida
Si me falta tu presencia
Yo me pierdo buscandote
Cierro mi vida, cierro para mi
El libro blanco de mi vida
El libro blanco de mi vida
