Last night after having a conversation with Ivan's oldest brother, Saul, I really got to thinking. Saul and his wife just had their first baby this past summer and their lives have changed in the most drastic measure. Saul mentioned to Ivan and myself the fast whiplash that we will be hit with very shortly in our lives. No sleep, no free time, no spare money, no time for friends and the importance of communication and love betwen the two of us. Obviously it won't be like this forever but for the next year we are going to be hit with a tornado of change. Saul last night confirmed my anxiety is a reality and I am going to be faced with things I have never experienced or felt before, but ALL will be worth it because at the end of the day, when everyone is tucked into their beds at night and safe, you smile, look at you partner and feel accomplished.
Now on the other side of the spectrum, my friends. My friends of almost more than 20 years are completely lost and everytime I talk to them I hit a low. But at the same time I feel sooooo good. They tell me "they are jealous, envy, excited, etc" of me because they are so far from where I am, but I am also so far from them also. Being that they are continuing their education without any ties and able to do as they please. I don't miss the "free, single, drunken, late, careless, sleepless" nights, but I do miss the fact that my schooling will be pushed back even more now. But what gets me the most is they are so lost in the aspect of their own being. They are soooo lost. I can't relate to them in the least bit actually at all. And as time goes by, you really tend to stick to those you relate with or feel have matured with you and that is what I have been doing. Adjusting to my new lifestyle, and patiently waiting for my new arrival.
Hugs and kisses
xoxo
Currently going on 24 weeks, almost 6 months. Time is absolutely speeding passed me and tomorrow I will go to the Doctor again for my monthly check up. I do like being pregnant, but gosh the back pain, the constant tiredness and just being "big" is quite uncomfortable. I have to sleep in certain positions to be comfortable and I am very limited in the clothing department. I am currently organizing the baby shower that will be in December, so much to do....
School sucks, I hate my Chemistry class because it is quite difficult and my Professor is horrible at lecturing. And at this point I am just over school, I have so many other things on my mind I find it extremely hard to focus on school work and in class. Just have to get through this semester and then take one off when the baby is born and spend as much time with him/her possible. I am not a school person, I love to educate myself through books and other things, but I just hate school and the courses I have to take right now. I feel like I go to school and there is always so many classes left to take and its never ending.... and Im not even halfway done with my education.
Here are the most recent pictures of my belly. I have of course gotten a tiny bit bigger, but these were taken quite recently. Currently I am 23 weeks, 5 days and not craving much of anything :(
Today is raining and cold, grey and black. En este mundo todo me da igual y ya quiero conocer al nuevo amor de mi vida... mi bebe. 4 meses mas para esperar....
