Eva

Life has changed drastically since my last post, about 2 months ago on my blog. I haven't really found the perfect chunk of time to sit and write about this fantastic journey I have began of motherhood until now. My little valentine, Eva Leanne Gomez, was born on February 14, 2012 at 10:34 p.m. It was a long, strenuous, and anxious delivery, but I got through it and received my perfect Valentine gift, my daughter. She is beautiful, and reminds me a lot of myself, physically and emotionally. I never thought throughout my whole pregnancy I was carrying a girl, but little did we know, we were all taken by a surprise when we finally got to meet her.

Labor. It is everything people say it is. I came down to the point in my 19 hour delivery that my own techniques for breathing, and staying calm, and focused were going to suit me best. So, I erased my memory of everything I had learned in our childbirth class, all that I had read on the internet, and all the stories that my fellow mothers have chatted to me about. I needed to get through it MY way. When I finally got to the pushing stage of labor, I was exhausted and literally just wanted to sleep the day away, but NO, I was determined as ever to finish strong and successful. As I pushed and reached the last couple steps and I heard the first cries it was ALL worth it. Like everybody says, it was worth every bit of pregnancy, labor, and delivery. Now.. I just couldn't wait to get out of the hospital.

Two days later, we finally got to go home and take our little one with us. Petrifying, but exciting. The first few weeks were tough, impatient, long, and irritating. Thank God I had my mother there with us to spare me a few hours of sleep every now and then. But once she left, it was all Ivan and I. Patience is key. Once you find your patience and learn to cope with it, your golden. And I think I have found it,  and Ivan has also. Eva is an excellent sleeper, and I have only felt sleep deprived a few times, but nothing I could seriously complain about compared to other people I have heard from.

Eva is my everything. She is absolutely breathtaking in every sense of the word and in every way, shape and form. I miss her when I leave the house for just an hour or two. It is crazy to think that this little human being relies on me and Ivan for EVERYTHING. That she needs me as much as she does. That I made her. That she recognized my face and voice at such a young age. That she smiles back at me and leaves me the most amazing happiness. She is a miracle, and she is mine. I am going to miss her extremely much when I go back to work in a couple weeks, and I just hope that I don't miss too much of her growing up.

I can't wait to share our lives together, and get to know her more every single day as she grows up and that I am the one she will call "Mom", just like I did with my own.

I love you Eva Leanne Gomez <3 Love your mother.....