Last night after having a conversation with Ivan's oldest brother, Saul, I really got to thinking. Saul and his wife just had their first baby this past summer and their lives have changed in the most drastic measure. Saul mentioned to Ivan and myself the fast whiplash that we will be hit with very shortly in our lives. No sleep, no free time, no spare money, no time for friends and the importance of communication and love betwen the two of us. Obviously it won't be like this forever but for the next year we are going to be hit with a tornado of change. Saul last night confirmed my anxiety is a reality and I am going to be faced with things I have never experienced or felt before, but ALL will be worth it because at the end of the day, when everyone is tucked into their beds at night and safe, you smile, look at you partner and feel accomplished.
Now on the other side of the spectrum, my friends. My friends of almost more than 20 years are completely lost and everytime I talk to them I hit a low. But at the same time I feel sooooo good. They tell me "they are jealous, envy, excited, etc" of me because they are so far from where I am, but I am also so far from them also. Being that they are continuing their education without any ties and able to do as they please. I don't miss the "free, single, drunken, late, careless, sleepless" nights, but I do miss the fact that my schooling will be pushed back even more now. But what gets me the most is they are so lost in the aspect of their own being. They are soooo lost. I can't relate to them in the least bit actually at all. And as time goes by, you really tend to stick to those you relate with or feel have matured with you and that is what I have been doing. Adjusting to my new lifestyle, and patiently waiting for my new arrival.
Hugs and kisses
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Currently going on 24 weeks, almost 6 months. Time is absolutely speeding passed me and tomorrow I will go to the Doctor again for my monthly check up. I do like being pregnant, but gosh the back pain, the constant tiredness and just being "big" is quite uncomfortable. I have to sleep in certain positions to be comfortable and I am very limited in the clothing department. I am currently organizing the baby shower that will be in December, so much to do....
School sucks, I hate my Chemistry class because it is quite difficult and my Professor is horrible at lecturing. And at this point I am just over school, I have so many other things on my mind I find it extremely hard to focus on school work and in class. Just have to get through this semester and then take one off when the baby is born and spend as much time with him/her possible. I am not a school person, I love to educate myself through books and other things, but I just hate school and the courses I have to take right now. I feel like I go to school and there is always so many classes left to take and its never ending.... and Im not even halfway done with my education.
Here are the most recent pictures of my belly. I have of course gotten a tiny bit bigger, but these were taken quite recently. Currently I am 23 weeks, 5 days and not craving much of anything :(
Today is raining and cold, grey and black. En este mundo todo me da igual y ya quiero conocer al nuevo amor de mi vida... mi bebe. 4 meses mas para esperar....
Currently I sit in a coffee shop on a Sunday morning with Ivan. I have a diamond ring on my left hand signifying that I am engaged and Ivan is now my fiance. I am still getting used to the idea. It is funny when people ask "when is the wedding?" because to be quite honest, I have not even thought a milli-second about it other than I want a small, intimate, romantic wedding on the beach and a mariachi band definitely during the ceremony and in the reception. My mind is so focused on moving into our new little casita and the baby (where my mind should be).
I am amazed at how time has been flying by. I am already at the halfway mark of my pregnancy which is 20 weeks, this Thursday I will be 21 weeks. Mid second trimester and feeling pretty good overall. On Friday we went had a mid pregnancy ultra sound done and we got to see the baby up close. Everything is going well according to the Doctor it is so hard to believe how much bigger my belly gets everyday. Every morning when I wake up that is probably the first thing I do is check on the improvement of the belly's growth. At almost 5 months, I am blown away that in 4 months Ivan and I will be parents and we will have a new addition. It won't just be the two of us from now on. The next couple months will consist of maternity clothes and buying "cositas" for the new baby and planning a baby shower.
My mom is overjoyed with becoming a Grandma, and I am realizing what type of family I really have during these times. Good and bad. I am happy with Ivan, I am happy with the fact that we are engaged, future parents, study partners and best friends. Yes best friends.
Here are some pictures of the recent ultra sound.
Well we are approaching the end of August and before we know it, its September again. My birthday month. I can't believe ill be 25 in a few weeks. Lots of things have happened. School started again this week and this last weekend Ivanne moved into their first new little house in Buena Park. It is nice to be with Ivan now and it feels like its becoming real. My baby bump is slowly growing as I can't believe i'll be 4 months next week. I feel good for the most part, except for the terrible and annoying headaches. That is my only complaint. But yes, for the most part feeling pretty good. Definetely better than the 1st trimester. According to the Doctor everything is going well so far and next month we will be able to find the sex, but of course, we have decided to keep it a surprise till the very end. At the halfway point we will get to see the baby in FULL via the ultra sound :)
It is very bone chilling to look at my stomach and see it slowly grow and get harder and harder each day. And to think that in 5 months I will be a Mom is a mind blowing concept.
Best wishes to a sucessful Fall semester and another month of healthy pregnancy....
There are many events in a woman's life she plays through her head a thousand times and waits for the day that it might happen to her. Well, two of those moments has had happened to me recently. Obviously finding out I was pregnant with my first child was one and last night the other occured. A proposal from Ivan. It's funny because I still remember the night I met Ivan and distinctly remember saying to my friend on the way home that evening "I think I met the man I am going to marry". I was 21, intoxicated, with little knowledge of what "love" really was, but somehow I knew I had met him. Through all the ups and downs over the course of the years, Ivan and I have made it through the storms and breakdowns and remain strong. Well as of yesterday, officially he is my fiance and will be the father of my child. Without doubt, I couldn't ask for anyone else.
The ring is absolutely beautiful, It took my breath away. And you know... even though you know the moment is coming (in my case sooner than later), when you see your boyfriend on their knee with a ring it absolutely catches you in a moment you will never forget. Everytime I think of it, a tear comes to my eye. From this day forward, I will always remember August 10, 2011 as my engagement day and 1,000 steps was the place where I got proposed to. Oh, and the song he played will always be remembered in another way also "castate conmigo" by Reyli. I am so in love and nothing feels greater than this feeling and what awaits us in our future. My days as "Leanne Grant" are few...
Te amo Ivancito xoxoxo
