Going way off topic today. I am going to talk about girls. I absolutely hate when girls say "Ohhh, I don't need a boyfriend or I love being single". No, who are you kidding? Either you haven't met the right man yet, or something is just wrong with you so you can't get one. So ridiculous. Who are they trying to impress? That is not the representation of "women power". The power of a woman is most admired, powerful and utilized IN A RELATIONSHIP. Where you are stripped of all your pride, and you will do anything for the other person. That is power. Power is a loyal strong girlfriend, wife, or mother that stands up for what they believe in and raises their family with gratitude. I absolutely can't stand girls these days and their naiveness and lack of integrity. Believe me, I am not the sharpest crayon in the box, but I am trying.
Anyways, my point in this is that women AND men need to start reading more and stop watching novelas or reality shows that show misrepresentation after misrepresentation. I have always lived and understood that a "womens instinct is the best advice and gift she can have", and it has helped me in the past and in my present and my instinct is ALWAYS correct. Start trusting your instinct and act on it. If you don't act on your instinct, you are putting to waste your most precious gift a woman has, and her power.
You look on Facebook and girls represent themselves with pictures after pictures with a glasses and shots of alcohol, or who can wear the most sluttiest Halloween costume to attract the most guys. Your not going to pull a guy with that image. Girls go to a club with an intention to look for love, but then when the guy just wants your number to hook up cause you look easy and leave you, your heart broken and the women's image is more and more depleated as they do this cause the man took away your power. I have a very close friend who thinks that by wearing the shortest dress and showing the most cleavage will make a man fall in love with her and the poor girl has never been in a relationship and probably never will be, because of this portrait she shows of herself. Well, now that I think about it I met Ivan in a short, tight dress with a drink in my hand, but we weren't serious for a long time after that.
I pray everyday, I will be a good example to my children and will be able to provide them the appropiate advice they need when they ask for it.
Last night after having a conversation with Ivan's oldest brother, Saul, I really got to thinking. Saul and his wife just had their first baby this past summer and their lives have changed in the most drastic measure. Saul mentioned to Ivan and myself the fast whiplash that we will be hit with very shortly in our lives. No sleep, no free time, no spare money, no time for friends and the importance of communication and love betwen the two of us. Obviously it won't be like this forever but for the next year we are going to be hit with a tornado of change. Saul last night confirmed my anxiety is a reality and I am going to be faced with things I have never experienced or felt before, but ALL will be worth it because at the end of the day, when everyone is tucked into their beds at night and safe, you smile, look at you partner and feel accomplished.
Now on the other side of the spectrum, my friends. My friends of almost more than 20 years are completely lost and everytime I talk to them I hit a low. But at the same time I feel sooooo good. They tell me "they are jealous, envy, excited, etc" of me because they are so far from where I am, but I am also so far from them also. Being that they are continuing their education without any ties and able to do as they please. I don't miss the "free, single, drunken, late, careless, sleepless" nights, but I do miss the fact that my schooling will be pushed back even more now. But what gets me the most is they are so lost in the aspect of their own being. They are soooo lost. I can't relate to them in the least bit actually at all. And as time goes by, you really tend to stick to those you relate with or feel have matured with you and that is what I have been doing. Adjusting to my new lifestyle, and patiently waiting for my new arrival.
Hugs and kisses
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Currently going on 24 weeks, almost 6 months. Time is absolutely speeding passed me and tomorrow I will go to the Doctor again for my monthly check up. I do like being pregnant, but gosh the back pain, the constant tiredness and just being "big" is quite uncomfortable. I have to sleep in certain positions to be comfortable and I am very limited in the clothing department. I am currently organizing the baby shower that will be in December, so much to do....
School sucks, I hate my Chemistry class because it is quite difficult and my Professor is horrible at lecturing. And at this point I am just over school, I have so many other things on my mind I find it extremely hard to focus on school work and in class. Just have to get through this semester and then take one off when the baby is born and spend as much time with him/her possible. I am not a school person, I love to educate myself through books and other things, but I just hate school and the courses I have to take right now. I feel like I go to school and there is always so many classes left to take and its never ending.... and Im not even halfway done with my education.
Here are the most recent pictures of my belly. I have of course gotten a tiny bit bigger, but these were taken quite recently. Currently I am 23 weeks, 5 days and not craving much of anything :(
Today is raining and cold, grey and black. En este mundo todo me da igual y ya quiero conocer al nuevo amor de mi vida... mi bebe. 4 meses mas para esperar....
Currently I sit in a coffee shop on a Sunday morning with Ivan. I have a diamond ring on my left hand signifying that I am engaged and Ivan is now my fiance. I am still getting used to the idea. It is funny when people ask "when is the wedding?" because to be quite honest, I have not even thought a milli-second about it other than I want a small, intimate, romantic wedding on the beach and a mariachi band definitely during the ceremony and in the reception. My mind is so focused on moving into our new little casita and the baby (where my mind should be).
I am amazed at how time has been flying by. I am already at the halfway mark of my pregnancy which is 20 weeks, this Thursday I will be 21 weeks. Mid second trimester and feeling pretty good overall. On Friday we went had a mid pregnancy ultra sound done and we got to see the baby up close. Everything is going well according to the Doctor it is so hard to believe how much bigger my belly gets everyday. Every morning when I wake up that is probably the first thing I do is check on the improvement of the belly's growth. At almost 5 months, I am blown away that in 4 months Ivan and I will be parents and we will have a new addition. It won't just be the two of us from now on. The next couple months will consist of maternity clothes and buying "cositas" for the new baby and planning a baby shower.
My mom is overjoyed with becoming a Grandma, and I am realizing what type of family I really have during these times. Good and bad. I am happy with Ivan, I am happy with the fact that we are engaged, future parents, study partners and best friends. Yes best friends.
Here are some pictures of the recent ultra sound.
Well we are approaching the end of August and before we know it, its September again. My birthday month. I can't believe ill be 25 in a few weeks. Lots of things have happened. School started again this week and this last weekend Ivanne moved into their first new little house in Buena Park. It is nice to be with Ivan now and it feels like its becoming real. My baby bump is slowly growing as I can't believe i'll be 4 months next week. I feel good for the most part, except for the terrible and annoying headaches. That is my only complaint. But yes, for the most part feeling pretty good. Definetely better than the 1st trimester. According to the Doctor everything is going well so far and next month we will be able to find the sex, but of course, we have decided to keep it a surprise till the very end. At the halfway point we will get to see the baby in FULL via the ultra sound :)
It is very bone chilling to look at my stomach and see it slowly grow and get harder and harder each day. And to think that in 5 months I will be a Mom is a mind blowing concept.
Best wishes to a sucessful Fall semester and another month of healthy pregnancy....
