1st Trimester Final Stretch

Yesterday I had my last 1st Trimester visit where they performed a special ultra sound and I got to see the baby very close and all its details! I still can't believe this. I am approximately 12 weeks and the baby appears to be growing at great speed. We won't know for sure exactly how baby is doing though until 20 weeks, so 2 more appointments. However, next month we will be able to hear the baby heartbeat :)
It is so overwhelming. I wake up and I realize I have someone new to live for and I am so blessed I have been given the opportunity to become a mother. I can't wait to fill my home with overflowing love and give Ivan so much love :) Lots of changes about to happen, we will be moving next month and starting school again. Keep smiling....

Wonderwall

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Just to Name a few....

Alebrijes. Downtown Fullerton. El Calor. Parking structures. Manjar Mistico. "Damaged"-Danity Kane. "Please Don't Stop the Music"- Rihanna. La Guera del oc. Adios Mother fucker and grey goose and soda.  Tercero Lounge. "Hey i'm outside". Kissing for hours outside of my old Lake Forest apartment. Lalo's house (when I left my underwear). Iron Man. Xalos. Tapout shirt. Meeting you at Carmax at the spot at 1am. OC Fair (we didn't even make it 1 hour). Bruno. Haunted House. Me falling at Saul's old apartment in the dark. Lucy's Wedding. 23rd Birthday in Vegas. "I love you". Meeting the parents. Vegas 3 times in one month. "Text me when you get home". Acapulco. Cristo Rey. Leon. La serenata. Callejon del beso. Chim chim. "Your the one". Leon soccer game. Picking you up from TJ airport. Valentines Day in Chinatown. Hikes. "Pero vente para aca" Skiing. Coming over after work. Key is under the mat. Catalina Island.  Golf cart madness. Olamendis. Winning the egg toss at company picnic. Six flags. Del Mar fair. Your 24th Bday party. The birdie game. Venice beach. Roma's wedding in Leon. Lyndsays couch and movie nights. Cooking dinner together. Dodger games. Surprise picnic at the beach. San Francisco Marathon. Leon games in TJ. Laugh Factory. Christmas lights. Christmas Cookie decorating.  Ti Amo. Sushi. "Let me tell you a little story... there once was this little girl....". Halloween in Vegas. Phantom of the Opera. Crown and coke. Mariachis in LA. Los Tres concierto. Beach at night. Indian food. Peruvian food. Poker games. Ducks game. Ice skating in Santa Monica. Universal Studios. Black Swan. San Juan mission. LA marathon. Cirque de Soleil in Long Beach. Cruise. Miami. Miniature Golfing. Leannsita.

AHORA QUE......

Pregnancy Blues

Morning sickness. I hate it. Why? Because it isn't just in the morning, it lasts all day and all night. Nothing sounds good to eat, I literally snack on crackers and fruit all day with ginger ale and if I eat I am absolutely hating it and not enjoying it at all. I am 24/7 nauseous (no idea how to spell that word). I can't sleep and if I sleep its a lousy 3 hours awakened by urges to go to the bathroom. On top of all this, I feel a sadness over me I can't explain. In all my years of life, I never imagined it to be like this. Living in my parents home and my mom taking care of me, lovingly and generously. I seriously feel like a single mom. I am too sick AND tired to even go out and have fun with friends. I am currently at 8 weeks and can't wait for this first trimester to finish. I heard that this is the worst, but every woman reacts differently so i've read. I feel alone and I feel like anyone but my Mom should be helping me right now. I can't begin to tell you how appreciative of her I am, and I am sure going to let her know tomorrow on her birthday.

I know in the end this is going to be all worth it, but gosh how miserable. I just never imagined to be pregnant to be like this...... just have to keep smiling.