This week I will complete a full term pregnancy of 40 weeks if I make it to Thursday. At this point in time, the baby could decide to come at anytime. I feel so mentally and emotionally ready that all I want is the day to come and feel that happiness that everyone describes to me. As I was speaking to my oldest brother-in-law last night, he told me with his arm around my shoulder in the most uttermost confidence and it was so clear to see that his little boy brings him so much sunshine to his life, even when he comes home from a long work day or wakes up from a 2 hour night sleep. He explained to me that I really have no idea what is headed my way in regards to experiencing a love so deep, so eternal, and so vast. I can't wait to meet you, neither can your Grandma....
On another note, I felt some other emotions take their toll on me that I haven't felt in some time. And I have to admit that it has felt pretty good to have a such a long break from these emotions. However, I Have so many unanswered questions. Why are people out to destroy others happiness? Why don't people take their own lives by the reigns and fix them if their so unhappy? Why break others? What has happened to peoples values, respect or morals? Why is it SO hard to just trust others? Why does temptation always persist? Are people just NOT happy with one person anymore? Is marriage torture more than fulfillment? Why must one always watch ones back? I feel simply embarrassed and like I want to throw up in my mouth with the actions that have been done. I have been raised by two amazing, supportive, loving, caring, forgiving, exceptional, and over the top intelligent parents who have taught me to remain faithful in my relationships, respectful (which I sometimes forget how to be, but the important thing is my awareness of that), and remain happy with my own self. Its time to look in the mirror and think rationally, and you can only think rationally if with a clear head and once you have a clear mind I recommend these measures to guide you....
All I can do is offer these advices to you...
5 Rules to Your own Happiness
1. Free your heart from hatred
2. Free your mind from worries
3. Live simply
4. Give more
5. Expect less
"Some people feel the rain, while others just get wet" - Bob Marley
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