Engagement

There are many events in a woman's life she plays through her head a thousand times and waits for the day that it might happen to her. Well, two of those moments has had happened to me recently. Obviously finding out I was pregnant with my first child was one and last night the other occured. A proposal from Ivan. It's funny because I still remember the night I met Ivan and distinctly remember saying to my friend on the way home that evening "I think I met the man I am going to marry". I was 21, intoxicated, with little knowledge of what "love" really was, but somehow I knew I had met him. Through all the ups and downs over the course of the years, Ivan and I have made it through the storms and breakdowns and remain strong. Well as of yesterday, officially he is my fiance and will be the father of my child. Without doubt, I couldn't ask for anyone else.


The ring is absolutely beautiful, It took my breath away. And you know... even though you know the moment is coming (in my case sooner than later), when you see your boyfriend on their knee with a ring it absolutely catches you in a moment you will never forget. Everytime I think of it, a tear comes to my eye. From this day forward, I will always remember August 10, 2011 as my engagement day and 1,000 steps was the place where I got proposed to. Oh, and the song he played will always be remembered in another way also "castate conmigo" by Reyli. I am so in love and nothing feels greater than this feeling and what awaits us in our future.  My days as "Leanne Grant" are few...

Te amo Ivancito xoxoxo

1st Trimester Final Stretch

Yesterday I had my last 1st Trimester visit where they performed a special ultra sound and I got to see the baby very close and all its details! I still can't believe this. I am approximately 12 weeks and the baby appears to be growing at great speed. We won't know for sure exactly how baby is doing though until 20 weeks, so 2 more appointments. However, next month we will be able to hear the baby heartbeat :)
It is so overwhelming. I wake up and I realize I have someone new to live for and I am so blessed I have been given the opportunity to become a mother. I can't wait to fill my home with overflowing love and give Ivan so much love :) Lots of changes about to happen, we will be moving next month and starting school again. Keep smiling....

Wonderwall

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Just to Name a few....

Alebrijes. Downtown Fullerton. El Calor. Parking structures. Manjar Mistico. "Damaged"-Danity Kane. "Please Don't Stop the Music"- Rihanna. La Guera del oc. Adios Mother fucker and grey goose and soda.  Tercero Lounge. "Hey i'm outside". Kissing for hours outside of my old Lake Forest apartment. Lalo's house (when I left my underwear). Iron Man. Xalos. Tapout shirt. Meeting you at Carmax at the spot at 1am. OC Fair (we didn't even make it 1 hour). Bruno. Haunted House. Me falling at Saul's old apartment in the dark. Lucy's Wedding. 23rd Birthday in Vegas. "I love you". Meeting the parents. Vegas 3 times in one month. "Text me when you get home". Acapulco. Cristo Rey. Leon. La serenata. Callejon del beso. Chim chim. "Your the one". Leon soccer game. Picking you up from TJ airport. Valentines Day in Chinatown. Hikes. "Pero vente para aca" Skiing. Coming over after work. Key is under the mat. Catalina Island.  Golf cart madness. Olamendis. Winning the egg toss at company picnic. Six flags. Del Mar fair. Your 24th Bday party. The birdie game. Venice beach. Roma's wedding in Leon. Lyndsays couch and movie nights. Cooking dinner together. Dodger games. Surprise picnic at the beach. San Francisco Marathon. Leon games in TJ. Laugh Factory. Christmas lights. Christmas Cookie decorating.  Ti Amo. Sushi. "Let me tell you a little story... there once was this little girl....". Halloween in Vegas. Phantom of the Opera. Crown and coke. Mariachis in LA. Los Tres concierto. Beach at night. Indian food. Peruvian food. Poker games. Ducks game. Ice skating in Santa Monica. Universal Studios. Black Swan. San Juan mission. LA marathon. Cirque de Soleil in Long Beach. Cruise. Miami. Miniature Golfing. Leannsita.

AHORA QUE......

Pregnancy Blues

Morning sickness. I hate it. Why? Because it isn't just in the morning, it lasts all day and all night. Nothing sounds good to eat, I literally snack on crackers and fruit all day with ginger ale and if I eat I am absolutely hating it and not enjoying it at all. I am 24/7 nauseous (no idea how to spell that word). I can't sleep and if I sleep its a lousy 3 hours awakened by urges to go to the bathroom. On top of all this, I feel a sadness over me I can't explain. In all my years of life, I never imagined it to be like this. Living in my parents home and my mom taking care of me, lovingly and generously. I seriously feel like a single mom. I am too sick AND tired to even go out and have fun with friends. I am currently at 8 weeks and can't wait for this first trimester to finish. I heard that this is the worst, but every woman reacts differently so i've read. I feel alone and I feel like anyone but my Mom should be helping me right now. I can't begin to tell you how appreciative of her I am, and I am sure going to let her know tomorrow on her birthday.

I know in the end this is going to be all worth it, but gosh how miserable. I just never imagined to be pregnant to be like this...... just have to keep smiling.

New Chapter

At 25, unmarried, and not done with school I never thought this day would come. Two weeks ago I discovered I am newly pregnant. The news was very hard to swallow and digest for both of us, but as time went on, I made the mature and long thought decision to keep the baby and change my life forever. We will continue on with our goals in life, together and at a slower pace, but by no means does this mean life is now limited and we can't get through everything we planned. He has my support and I have his in everything in regards to school and work.

Yesterday was the first doctor appointment and it was life changing, because it has finally hit me, we are going to be parents and have a little Gomez running around next year. I feel incredible, which feels great after the extreme depression and sadness experienced last week. So far I have support from everyone who has heard the news.

Most importantly, I pray this baby is healthy more than anything, 10 fingers and 10 toes, a healthy central nervous system and as it grows it feels our love :)

The search for an warm and safe place to call home together awaits us in the upcoming months, and the journey begins. God bless my new family :)

LA, Houston, Houston to Miami, to Bahamas, Bahamas to Miami

Here are some pictures from our recent trip to Miami and the Bahamas.