The Golden Rule

What compells people to cheat or lie? What kind of satisfaction does it fulfill? Is it the adrenaline? Is it the chance you take that you MIGHT get caught and you like the risk. I was reading in my Psychology book last week about relationships and it mentioned something along the lines that most people in a relationship often fantasize about having sexual activity with someone other than their partner. WOW. That will make you feel insecure. I guess it goes for both women/men, but the percentages definetely lead in the mens favor. Why is this world so corrupted in the relationship aspect? Our divorce rate is already off the charts high.  No wonder women get breast implants or starve themselves and men actually believe that penis enlargement devices work. Why do people that are so unhappy remain in their miserable relationships?

In the past 3 days, I've talked with two girls. Both of different ages and both experiencing difficulties in their relationships right now. Both have proven they crave the desire to be fought for. They want to see the actions to be taken, the suffering, the pain and the chase the man will do for them. If you break up with someone and they respond back "OK, well if thats how you feel and want" how is that supposed to make you feel? They don't have enough feelings to chase after you or make it work? Why are womens standards or expectations in a relationship so different than men? Women solely need to trust their instinct and use it wisely. If every woman did that, we would not have such a strong stereotype on ourselves.

Love is an experience to be lived without fear of taking risks, to surpass any inability to cry or laugh, and to give a piece of your heart to someone and expect that given piece of theirs to complete your given half. Like a puzzle. In Kindergarden we are taught to "Do to others as you would like them to do to you"... "The Golden Rule"... where in life do we begin to lose the respect or the purpose in that?

Ridiculous, inconvienent, consuming, cant live without eachother, until the end, love....

BLEHHHHH

Worst feeling ever... when your boyfriend goes on vacation to Cancun without you. Seriously :-/

Warm hearts on a Rainy day

Yesterday was the LA marathon. Everyone was talking about the stormy weather that was coming our way, but none of us seemed to believe it until we were standing under the dark, gloomy clouds hanging over us at the start line. I had no idea what was in for myself. I started out at a steady pace and then around mile 6, I really started to slow down. My right knee was screaming at me and it still is. The rain began to crash down and there was not an inch of dryness on our bodies. Shoes were drenched, socks were soaked and we were running threw the hardest rainfall I've seen in a long time. At Mile 13 I said goodbye to Ivan and he went on his way to finish the race. I am proud of every single person who crossed that 26.2 mile finish line in Santa Monica yesterday, because it was not an easy task. My heart goes out to all those who stuck with it and took the challenge of completing the whole race. I am so upset with myself I didn't finish it, but I am happy I made it to mile 13, but a little discouraged I didn't complete my goal. It just pushes me to work harder. It was absolute chaos at that finish line. But wow, what a day. I'll never forget it.

Anyways, school is yelling my name this week, tons to do and next week is finally spring break! Not going anywhere, but it will be nice to hit the gym for a few extra hours, or catch up on sleep. A couple mroe months at the end of the semester, I'll be soaking up the rays in Miami and the Bahamas :) Hopefully the sun shows its face this week, because my spirits are always up a bit higher when the sun is out.

Routine Living

Today I reflect on how much I am over my job. I have been working for my Dad for about 6 years now and in the same position as when I started. I think to myself "I'd rather be at school than here at my job". Although I am a full time student and a full time worker and my finances have been cut in half, most would say "what else do you want?". But goodness... I am bored. I am bored with my job to the maximum.


I sit and laugh or sometimes even shake my head to my brainless co-worker (whom I have not spoken with for almost a year) who has a baby and one on the way. And at 28 she isnt going anywhere in her life. Her boyfriend doesn't make much and will never make enough which requires her to stay working full time. I do not want that. I either want to go full blown on my career or start a family when my partner says "ok, lets do this". Just looks like I am in a bind. I am always reading where it says "you won't feel like your at work, if you love your job" or "your wasting your life doing a job you hate". Well, I feel like that is definetely me. I guess I need to thank my lucky stars and count my blessings I have a job, right?....

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Today I am simply all smiles and laughter. I'm pretty sure I bombed my math exam last night and I have tons of homework, bla bla bla I am thinking very positively :)  And Ivanne is going to Miami in May!!!

DISASTER

My heart is very heavy for Japan and the recent earthquake/tsunami disaster that has hit their beloved country. Millions of people dead, injured and missing in minutes. The images and videos make my heart sink and I feel uneasy as I think to myself that not one of us is safe. Especially living near one of the most famous earthquake fault zones and minutes of the Pacific coast. 

After the grand disasters around the world in the past year or so, I truly believe that God is in power. I had a strange prediction that all these tragedies was Gods way of demonstrating that he is control. The world is just not the same. So much controversy in religion, politics, finances, education, marriage, violence... you name it. I compare it kind of like Noah and the Ark and how he flooded the earth from sin. If we don't wake up and smell the coffee and stop worrying and shifting our focus on materialistic matters, I guarantee our eyes will be opened and we will not be able to shut them in peace. There is so much to be fortunate for.

I don't consider myself to be very self centered or materialistic. I like to stop and smell the flowers most the time, because I never know when my time will come. And if I had money I would donate tons of money to these unfortunate families. Take the time to tell those you love, you love them, love with patience and stop sweating the small stuff because in the end it just isn't worth it.

Going for the Gold

Like everyone else, I have many strengths and weaknesses. I usually can distinguish one from the other pretty quickly. Lately I have been challenging myself to turn my weaknesses into strengths. We all can thrive at something if we try and give it enough practice. Practice makes perfect they say. Math is my one big infamous weakness I have and I am challenging myself to suceed in my math class. That is one example. In other ways I am challenging myself (psychologically). When I excercise and I tell myself to do 5 more reps, heck with 5, i'll do 10. Challenge yourself to exceed your normal expectations and make your expectations LARGE. Or else we might never find positive results. May positivity and determination flow through our bloodstream. Countdown to LA Marathon: 12 days

Rocks in the Road

Today is one of those days. I hate them, but at the end I tend to like them. These are the days where I hate my job, over school and just want to quit. But no. I can't just drop it all. I have made promises and goals. The finish line seems so far away, but little by little I will get a glimpse, smile and it will all be worth it. Days like today I lose my focus and I hate when that happens. I hate when I lose sight of what is really worth appreciating and what isn't. Its days like these that I need to go to the beach, go for a run, breathe in and out and feel the rhythm of life and be thankful.  I understand I am not able to do half the things I'd like to in life right now, but I have to be thankful that I am able to do a bit of it rather than none. So, today I have made a few new promises to myself. I am also looking forward to running the marathon in an effort to clear the mind in a few weeks. I need that boost, again. And I know exactly where to go and get it... and run with it.